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I've been sitting here staring at my screen forever before i definitely decided to write. Ugh.. I don't even want to write.. I think Im go through some of my old music and relax...

A Letter To You.... (Daniel Wiggins)

Hi baby,

I tried to write poetry tonight, but it just wasn't working for me. So I'm switching it up a bit. You're probably laughing cos I am sitting here writing a love letter to you. *giggles*

You make me wanna do everything I didn't.. I see possibilities that was once hidden in the shadows. I want to share the most sacret part of myself with you.. See I plan on giving you the best of me. Not just physically. But mentally & Spiritually as well. This is no secret but I am in love with you and this isn't the way I wanted to say it.
Other men means what? Not a shitting ass thing to me. There's nothing they can say or do to detour my thoughts of you. Are they jealous of you? Of course, I'm not blind or death. I hear every comment that's being made and see everything they do. That's not my concern. I have who I want and that is you Daniel. The attention I want comes from you and damn how I love it. It's your arms I want to feel wrapped around me at night when I fall asleep. It's your lips I want to feel pressed against mine wishing me a good morning. It's your voice that drives me crazy and moistens my panties. Your touch drives a sensation down my spine all through my body. Your eyes make me feel like a shy little girl.. My hands be so sweaty like I just finished playing in water.. Playing with your hair... *giggling* trying to steal quick kisses while on my tippy toes... I think thats the cutest.. I look in my mirror all the time... It's not me, I see... I see you.. Because with me is where u suppose to be... So close yet so far.......
I love you and I know in my heart you love me just as much. *shrugs*


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Laying in bed doing a replay of my day. It was incredible I must say.....

My One

sometimes (one)
sometimes souls meet before eyes can

sometimes the heart knows morethan the mind can understand

sometimes

hope is not a whispered suggestion

but a collision of mountains and sky creating frequencies mere mortals have no place to deny

sometimes it is more right than reasonable to open the door onto your most sacred parts

and lay bare in the sunto the gaze of only

one
whom you trust before you realize it adore before you can rationalize it

and love before you can resist it.

sometimes rarity is the only reality

sometimes two equal so much more when they are

one

Can U See... Do U Listen
Look into my eyes, they tell you all that you need to see...
From a woman who was lost and the scorned that once had taken over me.
Look into my eyes can you see the love that I hold for thee.
I won't make empty promises of giving you the world..
All I can offer is giving you the very best of me...
Listen to my heart...
You can hear how much it yearns for you...
Look further past my heart and you'd see directly into my soul...
See I'm as simple as you want me to be;
yet complicated if you don't take the time to truly understand me....
But the feeling that runs deep within me is something I've longed for and now its frightening me.
Honestly, can you be the person I need for you to be?
Even when times get rough will you stand up strong beside me?
So what I'm a bit spoiled but as a woman isn't that the way it suppose to be?
I don't want for anything and I ask for nothing.
All you have to do is love me...
Love me beyond your eyes though beauty is what you seek ....
and pass your heart cos with every beat tends to make you weak....
Love me with your soul as if we'd never part...
Love me with all your being because you're the person who holds my heart....

Thoughts....

Can you be everything I need for you to be to me?

Do you want me? Do you sit and daydream? Do you get excited when you see me? Do you ever think about what it would be like to lay cuddled up just holding me? Would you feel honored if I allowed you to touch and taste me? I am a Queen.. "A Beautiful Nubian Queen." Will you treat me like royalty? I am everything your mama wants you to have as your wife. See I'm a woman, not just of my time.. But I'm a woman of all times..

Do I want you? With every ounce of my being. The man I chose to be with will be treated as royalty. To me, he is more than my man.. But he is my King. "My Nubian King". I will love him, be submissive to him, I will be obedient to him. I will show him what it is to be truly loved by a woman who is not his mother. I'll love him because my heart & soul will allow me to. I will be submissive and obedient because I am his woman and chose to be.

Do I plan on touching on you? Yes. First I will touch your mind, so therefore I'll always be on it. See I wanna be the woman to do things others have yet to accomplish. Touch your body? No... it'll come in due time. I wanna taste your soul while making you whole. I'm the completion of your existence. It's a shame you didn't know. I knew from our first, "hello, how are you?". So what? I want you, want to be with you, help make your dreams come true. Be supportive in all you go through. Maybe I'm too mature and my love isn't meant for you! I'm not into games nor do I have the time for them. If you wanna play with strings, my best suggestion would be for you to get a guitar. I'm not a toy so my feelings & emotions won't be played with.

I need you to look at me as a person. See ME! Not my big breast, or baby making hips. Not my suckable lips. But me.. Open your eyes...

(I believe in you...You'd be true always)

Just some thoughts of what I want and how I feel!!

~k~

My Pain .... My Reality

Lately I've been very emotional, and I had no real reason why. I was just crying... I wasn't up for real conversations. Well today I got "the news" he's dead.. Yes he died. A part of me was extremely happy (as cold as that may sound) but another part of me was sad. Today, I cried for a lot of reasons.. I cried because I sympathize with his family. I cried because he was the love of my life even though I was not his. I cried because he was the reason I was afraid to go home.. He was a true bastard in every sense of the word. But I loved that man more than the air that flowed through my body.He taught me horrific lessons at a young age. He was everything I prayed to never have in another man who claims to love me.. Everyone tells me I will love like that again one day. But I hope I never do. Why? Because I'm afraid to. I'm not perfect, and yes my attitude stinks at times. But today I sat back and cried not knowing who I could really turn to. Most people think women like myself are stupid, because they don't seem to grasp the understanding of the mess we've gone through. Can you tell me how I'm not suppose to feel some type of pain? The man I once loved with every ounce of my being died. I shared ALL of my first experiences with him. I loved him enough I took his last name.... He hurt me dearly... He is gone, but the scars are still on display... Look at my body, hell look closely at my face.. But to this day I wouldn't wish death on him, that's not my place..I said a prayer and hopes he's in a better place.. I sent my condolences to his family praying so they'd have strength and much better days.August 13th, 1976 - May 13th, 2008